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What it means to be an artist

Rudolf Erdei
9 min readMay 21, 2021

I’m one of those people that actually feel ASMR. Slow and meticulous hand movements induce a strange pleasant pain in my forehead. My eyes close halfway, as my mind drifts into different worlds. ASMR is strange and very different for everyone who is lucky enough to experience it.

I was on an ASMR Facebook page when someone asked something about ASMR artists. From their discussions, I understood that they have absolutely no idea of what it means to be an artist. Everyone with a microphone and a basic understanding of ASMR, is an artist. They could not be farther from the truth.

I, myself, always dreamed to be an artist. I was a professional photographer for 14 years, I studied photography from every angle, learnt its in’s and out’s. But still, 14 years later, I cannot classify myself as an artist. So, what are the implications of this title? What does an artist have, that no one else has?

During this article, I would like us to explore together this strange, painful, sometimes awkward world that is completely out of our understanding. It can end up in a long read, but hopefully you will have the patience to go through it all.

Art is an infinite mix of rules, guidelines and feelings, in which everything and nothing matters; a mix in which you have to think with your mind and heart at the same time, and the ratio…

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Rudolf Erdei

Ex professional photographer, rookie watercolor painter, currently working in computer science research.